Fucking hormones...
Fucking technology...
Fucking procrastination.
Many different factors in why my head wants to implode, leaving a bloody, still crying mess spattered on the floor and walls.
Ive been on birth control for 5 days now, and its fucking with my system... I explode at people at the slightest push. Not to mention the fact that my nerves are a little strung out on STRESS as I have to have EVERYTHING done by tomorrow. First thing in the morning.
(3 different papers, a self assessment and all my hours... ever)
So today, on top of my crazy hormones, accented by stress from my unending procrastination, everything falls apart when trying desperately to finish my drug video (which sucks anyway)
Attempting to use software I've never used before, left pretty much completely on my own.
Still, after the brief explanation Nono gave me on what to do, I thought I could handle it.
Then I realize the sound isn't coming out.
After I notice that, it stops showing the preview video.
Then, after a few different people try for almost a half an hour to fix it, they tell me I should have been doing this on a different account.
Nedlys.
So we log on to Nedly's account, and it doesn't recognize the files that I was Just working on.
(throughout this I'm practically hyperventilating and crying and just freaking out even though there was really nothing I could do at this point and was just freaking out everyone else)
From There, we try to recapture the footage onto the computer, but the connective wire keeps shorting out, and I'm told there's nothing I can do.
I have no idea how I'll be able to present tomorrow.
I feel really bad for freaking out today... I know people were just trying to help me, but I just felt all my hope collapse around me for this project, and I felt really alone in a situation I didn't know how to fix.
I hate not feeling in control of myself and the things I'm working on... but sometimes I need to just let go...
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