How I feel today

How I feel today

I love you
Because I’m such a Masochist
I self sabotage
When I’m finally doing alright
When it’s important
I’ll do anything else
Just not what’s important
Do what I shouldn’t
Don’t do what I should
And want what I can’t
I don’t come around
and I don’t stick around
or follow obediantly
As much as it hurts me
That I should
Physical pain was nothing
to what I’ve got now
Something has to break soon
And I don’t want to talk
But I want to scream
And I don’t want to think about it
But that’s all I’m going to do
And I’ve got shit to do
But I’m thinking
about why I hurt myself.


*credit to Cassi McLain, she of a level of eloquence that I cannot seem to match*